malam Jumaat

i got an sms just about an hour back. took a long while looking at it and deciding how i should be feeling about the news. even now, i still dont know how to feel.

but i thought about it. and you know, i think shes blessed. however the situation may have turned out. i think...no. i know shes blessed.

her brother had come home, and he was more brotherly to her than ever.

one of her best friends had returned home, and they met up with along with their other close friends, and had a beautiful day together.

and it seemed like then, and only then, when all those whom she holds dear to her had come together, back into her life, did the person probably most dear to her decide to return home herself.

perhaps She feels that it is now time that She can peacefully return. with Her youngest having her complete 'family' back in her life to support her in Her abscence.

and so she did. she returned home. pada malam jumaat. inalillah.

and if you happen to read this, perhaps this is her way of telling you that it's time to stop fighting that dilemma of trying to slow down the sands of time to cherish every moment of the present with her, because maybe she feels that you have cherished it, whatever time there was to cherish, and to now look forward towards the future to greater things.

you were meant for great things.